Category: Rambling


Not Even a Proper Meeting

Not sure how effective it’ll actually be, given that spirits are ephemera rather than solid, but I found a gym that offers boxing classes. If nothing else I feel a little better about if we ever have to fight a possessed person again.

And it fills the time.

Keeps my mind off the fact that we let a couple of heavily TB infected Uratha wonder back into Pearly Oaks where vulnerable humans live nice and crammed close together. Which I didn’t even think of after the fight and we would have never learned about if Skip and I hadn’t headed over to see if we could learn more from them. So many people getting sick while Brook and _ had recovered completely.

Even more than Brook vibrating after drinking anything with caffeine in it or having seen their wolf forms running off after the fight, that really drives home how not human the Uratha are. Which adds an extra flavor of weird to Alpha Storm seeming interested in Viv’s health but not seeming to care at all what had happened to Louis. Not sure what’s going on there.

Brook asked if Louis was doing better. Maybe the others just seem odd by comparison to her since we interact with her more than the rest of them?

I suggested that maybe we should meet somewhere else where there was less of a risk of anyone getting infected but all anyone would say to that was that they were too busy keeping order at Pearly Oaks for anyone to leave. Didn’t seem too orderly to me, but who am I to say? Maybe Storm figures that with Consumption out of Viv it isn’t our business anymore. Maybe he figures that they don’t need us anymore. He’s wrong on either count but I’ve seen people be more stubborn over dumber things.

I’m not going to go risk getting infected to try and learn things they don’t want to teach me. I can always hit up the forums that I first found the First Speak in.

Which I have since then, of course, there’s an item that might help us keep tracking Consumption, the Judge’s Eye, it seems like it should be some kind of lens for scrying through. It’s smoked with an incense that I’m just not familiar with the ingredients for. Not sure if that’s a matter of it being common things with names that the Uratha use that just don’t translate well or if they’re something completely new that I’ve just never heard of. Google isn’t any help either way because of the First Speak. It also mentioned needing a “gift of essence” as part of its crafting and needing to be smoked in the incense beyond the Gauntlet. I’m assuming that the Gauntlet and the veil are the same thing, which might be dangerous, but the context seems to bear that out. Talking to Viv about it, “essence” is what Consumption called the stuff it took from ghosts. Might be some kind of needed sacrifice?

Both of those leave me with no clear idea of how to continue. I’m sure there’s a way to get the essence for this, but I’m not sure what it is or if it needs to be freely given to qualify as a “gift”. Likewise, for this thing to exist and have as much information available as it did, there has to be a way to cross the Gauntlet or veil or whatever you want to call it, do the ritual, and come back all while still alive.

When I talked to Jimmy about it he thought it might be more trouble than it’s worth, that maybe I should go back to working on that spell to see spirits. That would work for me, but only for me. The Eye should work for anyone who uses it.

At any rate, Jimmy’s running a class tonight with some of the other more experienced magic users in the alternate religion side of the club about warding and spiritual protections. He invited me to come help and I think that Skip and Matt are coming too. I might have more to add on that later.

Postponement Funtimes

I sort of fell off the world the last couple days.

My laptop has the word file for the “Consumption Incident” posts and has decided to not want to function as it should. It should be fine in a couple days, I’m just going to go ahead and take the pen and paper notes so that I don’t have to fight with the program we use once my laptop is ready to function again.

Dice review is postponed because I sorted through my whole collection last night  and now everything is kind of scattered about. It’ll happen Monday as regularly scheduled instead of tonight.

Sorry all.

I’ve been talking a lot about getting things done and then having nothing to show for it lately, haven’t I? Sad thing is that all I can say on that is that I’m sorry and I’m working on it. Both are true, they’re just also both things I’ve said what feels like a hundred times before.

There’s so much I want to do and, with things like the recent protests, things I want to help with in anyway I can. It’s draining to realize how little I can do. To see what other people are doing to help their neighbors and find myself wanting by comparison.

I’m so tired of applying for jobs that ultimately come to nothing that I got legitimately angry while applying for what seems to be a job I have a decent chance of landing. I’m tired of trying and never seeing anything come from it but even more tired of the feeling of helplessness that comes from that. Right now, it feels like I’m treading water and looking for any sign of land, or walking in circles on circles on circles.

I’m going to keep treading, keep putting one foot in front of the other, but it would be really nice if I had somewhere to go. I’m definitely going to keep going though, I’ve been through this song and dance before and my brain hasn’t managed to get rid of me yet.

I’m tired of feeling all doom and gloom, but it did feel like I needed to say all of that. I finished the book I wanted to review last week. I’ve requested several books that I really want to read for reviews later in the year, some of which I’ve even heard back about. My current crafting project is coming along alright, even with yarn being a little hard to track down just now. My little corner of existence isn’t nearly as bad as it can feel. But I think I needed to talk about the things that were bothering me before I could talk about the good stuff.

Or the stuff for the blog.

As said, I’ve finished reading the book for this week’s review. I’m not sure how good the review will be due to several semi-related things, but it’ll be nice to get it written. My plan for tomorrow is to work on “Consumption Incident” things. My working on that just kind of fizzled out last week because of frustrations, one of which I know I can fix via pen and paper notes. Hopefully the other stuff will fall in line after that, if not I’ll just post pictures of my crocheting when I have to postpone it again. Dice review will be Friday. I’ve got several sets I want to talk about over the next few weeks, it’s just a matter of deciding which to tackle first and seeing when a couple things are going to arrive.

A quick apology for the existential crisis barf and that’s about it.

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So, I started working on the review for today last night before posting the House Keeping post and the words machine did not want to work. I tried to get back to it after the post and couldn’t really focus on it. I wound up deciding to take a break from it and finish it today and painted this instead, d20 is for size comparison.

Lady Vamp

One the one hand, I’m pretty pleased with how the mini turned out because it’s been a few years since I’ve painted one. On the other, if I’d known that I was going to spend most of today feeling utterly drained, I would have just worked through it to finish the review.

What all this means is that I’m going to postpone the review until Friday, that way I have it both finished and polished. The “Consumption Incident” post should go live tomorrow as expected.

I’m going to make this schedule thing work even if it means I have to take a couple of days to do a bunch of stuff in advanced.

I’m running entirely behind.

Not a lot happening this week. I’m still behind on everything, still haven’t heard back on any jobs or unemployment. Still trying not to be a tremendous downer.

So I’m going to mention a thing that brought me more than a bit of joy. I made a friend!

It’s based off the pictures for this pattern off of Ravelry for a Final Fantasy style black mage, which I would have just bought and followed if I could read a pattern at all. I’m definitely planning on working on neater iterations of it later, and learning to read a pattern so I can support the artist who came up with it an make the other two mages they designed, but I’m happy with it.

As to the blog, I am drastically behind which is less than ideal. I’ve been feeling pretty useless for the past couple weeks and it’s impacted my willingness/ability to really do anything. I’m planning on taking some time over the next few days to try and catch up on writing the “Consumption Incident” posts for a couple weeks and to get further in the book I’m reading. Once I take the time to sit and read it shouldn’t take me any time to finish this book, it’s really well written, I just have to take the time.

All that in mind, I’m going to post up this week’s dice review tomorrow. Next week it’ll go back to being on Monday, I’ve got a set coming from Libris Arcana’s subscription service that I’m planning on covering. It’s the last one before they swap over to their new premium resin dice for it.

I’ve also got a guest post coming up on Friday for Scott Coon’s Lost Helix. It promises to be a lot of fun and I hope you all enjoy it!

And that’s about it for this week.

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I have figured out how to make granny squares in a shape other than a square. Reality was not ready for me to have this knowledge. I’m trying to make a bag to take to the local farmers markets once things have started up again.

There’s a strawberry you pick not far from here that should be safe to go to if they’re open right now. The mask will keep me from eating my weight in berries while I’m there. But that just means I’ll eat more on the way home, right? I’m more than a little excited, it’s been awhile since I got to visit a you pick.

My tomatoes are doing well, just got the cages on them a few days ago because they’re growing like crazy. Both of them have several blooms already, so I’m hoping I’ll have tomatoes soon. The cherry ones especially should be great for snacking. The herbs are doing pretty great too, though the basil isn’t wanting to grow well just yet. The mint is more than making up for it.

I’m shaky on what I’m wanting to do blog wise. Just now there doesn’t seem to be a ton of interest in either the dice reviews or the “Consumption Incident” posts, which is kind of a bummer because I enjoy doing both. I don’t think I’m going to stop doing either, but I might pause on the in character story notes for next game. Pause on it here at least. It’s one of those places where I joke about void yelling, but then that isn’t actually a lot of fun.

Of course, by the same token, I’m considering getting a dice tower at some point to better test roll the dice I review. The duality of me there.

Speaking of all this, both the review for the week and the “Consumption Incident” post should be up some time on their respective days. I’ve just got to figure out a good way to separate two weeks worth of game into different posts without the excuse of it being a character’s personal journal and also without the character having a smart phone to just be emailing all this to her friends on the go.

And that’s about it.

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House Keeping 1/7/20

Still getting used to it being a new year. A little silly, but it happens every year so it isn’t surprising.

Had a lot of things on my mind this past week. Couple things that I’m not quite sure how to deal with. Couple things that feel so big they might blot out the sun.

Nothing insurmountable.

There used to be a record store in the side of town I lived in, Charlemagne Records, a little shop in the space above a restaurant. It was nice, good selection, well maintained, and the people were always friendly. Walking up the stairs to it kind of felt like passing into a different world, the kind of place where people knew and cared about local rock shows and would tell you about them if you were curious. The kind of place where you could find bands you’d never heard of as well as old favorites on CD or vinyl or tape.

They closed New Years Eve after more than forty years in business, a victim of rising rent as hotels and apartment buildings try to take over that part of the city.

I got to visit one more time before they closed. Found some really cool albums and some stuff I have no idea what I’m going to do with. It was a lot of fun, but in that bittersweet way where I didn’t want to leave but really had no excuse to stay. I guess I’m sentimental like that.

On a happier note, I passed all my classes. I’m sure I’ve mentioned that before, but I still don’t quite believe it. Partly that’s because no one bothered informing me that I had to apply to graduate, so I kept worrying that something had gone wrong with my classes. Just have to turn in my graduation application and get my diploma and everything will be on it’s way to awesome.

Over on things related to the blog directly, I’m hoping to have a book review up sometime tomorrow. It might get put off until Friday depending on how well the writing it part goes. There will be a “Sunshine’s Journals” post up Thursday. And I’m planning on resuming dice reviews this coming Monday. I had a bunch of dice from Kickstarter projects arrive over the holidays and I can’t wait to talk about them!

Which, after my weird stroll into near maudlin reminiscence, leads us to the end of this week’s house keeping.

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House Keeping 1/1/20

Part of me wanted to write a year end retrospective and talk about all the weirdness of 2019 in my life. Part of me still sort of wants to do that or something like it, but it feels a bit out of place.

I haven’t reviewed a book here in months, something that’s going to be changing soon I hope, exception given to Yule Love Her because I actually wrote that and scheduled it ages ago I just wanted it to post a thematic time. Funny, back when I wrote that review I figured that I’d have to post pone something else to make room for it or maybe fold it in to some kind of Blogmas celebration like I try to do for Halloween. Didn’t really work, but I have a couple of reviews I want to get written and a sort of comparison piece in addition to them that sort of ties in.

In a bitterly humorous sort of way seeing myself just not being able to read or write anything about books while working and doing classes made me miss being unemployed. I like my job and all but it was the variable it felt like I could have dropped easiest if rent wasn’t a thing.

But then I started talking about dice as an attempt to sort of pull myself out of that and I’ve wound up with a really fun collection of dice as a partial result. It worked for the most part. I’m looking forward to talking about some sets from Kickstarter and the November Originals box set coming up soon. It’s sort of a situation where I can just relax and ramble about something that isn’t likely to have any major faults, something that I can be positive and excited about without worrying about fangirling or if I’m being too hard on a set. It’s fun in a way that reviewing books sometimes isn’t, because sometimes books just aren’t as good as they should be or could be or any number of things.

And, of course, the Sunshine’s Journals posts. I really enjoy sharing those because it’s a lot of fun to sort of dig into Sunshine as a character and figure what she would say about game sessions. Not sure how many of those we have left. The campaign is winding down and, as much as I want to keep playing her, I’m not sure what’s going to happen as we get closer to the party facing Eebaku. It’s exciting and leaves me a little nervous for the party. I’m hoping that after the Caskfire Expedition is all wrapped up I’ll do a better job of fictionalizing the next World of Darkness campaign than I did with the last one. It looks like we have at least one more story in the Birmingham Saga before those characters get retired or move on to other stories entirely.

I think, at the end of the day, I’m excited to build on the things I started in 2019 as well as trying to get back to reviewing more books. I still love what I’m doing here and I want to see what all gets woven into the blog this year.

I guess I really wanted that year end recap after all. I guess there’s no harm in it, but let’s end this on a familiar note, yeah? I mean, I haven’t done this all decade.

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So, just yesterday Dice Envy posted up a thing on their blog talking about how they plan on dealing with the fear of missing out effect of limited edition dice. Essentially, they’ve chosen to reprint their limited edition dice so that people who missed out the first time around don’t have to worry as much. Just ask for an alert to when they’ll be available again so Dice Envy can gauge interest.

That means that if you wanted the recent Frost Dice, you can hit a button and get an email alert when they’re available again. Either set of the Healer’s Edition infinity d4? The ever out of stock Alpha Dice?  Same deal.

It’s a really cool idea that I hope other dice shops pick up as well. So, the best thing to do is to encourage them on this. Give it a read and let them know how cool their approach to this is at the post itself.

Nothing really to say this week. I’m still picking away at both getting a book review written and getting financial aid in order so I can go back to school. There’s dice on the way thanks to a lucky break and the Dice Envy affiliate program.

Things are going pretty much as usual.

I’ve been feeling kind of mopey lately, I admit. It’s a little like, there’s a million things I need to get done or want to get done or just could do. But it gets a little overwhelming. So I sit and watch videos or I nap or I start another crafting project and I wind up ignoring all the other things.

It’s something I need to work on. Actual work on, not just say that I’m going to and then let it slide.

But, all that aside, there’s a guest post coming this Friday.

I’m going to get a review done again eventually.

Everything else is just details.

So, standard stuff, if you like what I’m doing here feel free to leave a comment or a like. I’ve branched out a bit and want to see what people think once I’ve got everything balanced out. And, of course, if you really like what I’m doing here you can feed my caffeine addiction and buy me a ko-fi. In either case, have a great rest of the week!